State of Mind

I met a friend after a long time. 1 year 3 months. Not so long actually. But when i look back, I have lived my life twice as much as i have ever lived for the 21 years of my life. This 1 year has changed me. I’ve become stronger and weaker, humble and arrogant, confident but still lacking trust in myself, literally no self-esteem. I found love and lost it again,… maybe not love but definitely something beautiful, something i crave a lot. I need closure but i am more satisfied with life than what i ever was. But I feel complete. It’ll all be all right. As always.

But i’m glad i’m happy.

But a part of me remains. The shy meek girl. I over compensate that by talking. But the utter  low self esteem scares me. I look around i see people prettier than me. I see people smarter than me. But then that’s Georgia Tech i guess. I see people more hardworking, more focussed, and they have everything they ever wanted. I want that too. I want the job. The dream job. I want to love the work. I want to be good at it. I want to be in love. I want to give all the money i can to my parents. More than what they can ever imagine. I want them to be happy always. I wish i would stop cribbing always in my head. I wish i’d stop degrading myself because maybe i am not that bad/stupid/ an idiot. Maybe i’m just the same as any other person.

But i’m glad i’m happy. For now.

But something bugs me. How can someone you once knew, someone you could relate to and love and mean the world to you, seem like a complete…alien. I don’t know what changed you. I don’t know what changed me. Maybe you are the same..but i am not. I don’t feel anything at all anymore. It was everything to me, now its nothing. I thought i wasn’t good enough, now i feel i don’t need to be good enough, because i’m better than this. Maybe a little arrogance, but thats because i felt like i was nothing once upon a time. I am glad i don’t anymore.

But i’m glad i’m happy. Finally.


How to fix the Python Version and make “import requests” work in a Mac OS using PyCharm IDE

In summary – Here is a tutorial to fix “ImportError: No module named ‘requests’”.

So here i am, awake at 3 am trying to get this silly issue working. I was pretty much lost after exhausting every damn resource. I did the exact same thing as most people. Added requests library to the python lib folder.and Nope. I even changed the damn Python Version. But Nope – it won’t work.

I was getting the following error:
/System/Library/Frameworks/Python.framework/Versions/3.5/bin/python3.5 /Users/Meghna/PycharmProjects/untitled/
Traceback (most recent call last):
File “/Users/Meghna/PycharmProjects/untitled/”, line 1, in <module>
import requests
ImportError: No module named ‘requests’

Process finished with exit code 1
So here is what actually worked.

a) Watch the video :   [Python] Installing the requests Library – YouTube
b) After this, in finder , go to the Macintoosh HD (root directory) -> System -> Library -> Frameworks -> Python.framework ->Versions -> 3.5 -> lib -> python3.5 -> paste the requests as given in the video into this directory

If it didn’t work then maybe you are working on the wrong python version!
Now lets try to change the system python version to the one that the IDE uses.
1) Go to the terminal and check the current version using “python –version”
I got 2.7 . But the IDE was using 3.5 (which i had previously installed) So i executed the following steps in the terminal to make the changes :

a) sudo – s
b) vi
(How to insert data into file using vi : Copy the text below first – then press i to insert then do cmd+v –> this pasted the following into the file

rm -R /System/Library/Frameworks/Python.framework/Versions/3.3
mv /Library/Frameworks/Python.framework/Versions/3.3 /System/Library/Frameworks/Python.framework/Versions
chown -R root:wheel /System/Library/Frameworks/Python.framework/Versions/3.3

rm /System/Library/Frameworks/Python.framework/Versions/Current
ln -s /System/Library/Frameworks/Python.framework/Versions/3.3 /System/Library/Frameworks/Python.framework/Versions/Current

rm /usr/bin/pydoc
rm /usr/bin/python
rm /usr/bin/pythonw
rm /usr/bin/python-config

rm /System/Library/Frameworks/Python.framework/Versions/3.3/bin/pydoc
rm /System/Library/Frameworks/Python.framework/Versions/3.3/bin/python
rm /System/Library/Frameworks/Python.framework/Versions/3.3/bin/pythonw
rm /System/Library/Frameworks/Python.framework/Versions/3.3/bin/python-config

ln -s /System/Library/Frameworks/Python.framework/Versions/3.3/bin/pydoc3 /usr/bin/pydoc
ln -s /System/Library/Frameworks/Python.framework/Versions/3.3/bin/python3 /usr/bin/python
ln -s /System/Library/Frameworks/Python.framework/Versions/3.3/bin/pythonw3 /usr/bin/pythonw
ln -s /System/Library/Frameworks/Python.framework/Versions/3.3/bin/python3-config /usr/bin/python-config

(Save the file : press esc -> :wq!)

c) Run the script : “./”

d) Check python version : “python –version”
And its changed to 3.5!

2) Watch the video : [Python] Installing the requests Library – YouTube
After this, in finder , go to the Macintoosh HD (root directory) -> System -> Library -> Frameworks -> Python.framework ->Versions -> 3.5 -> lib -> python3.5 -> paste the requests as given in the video into this directory

Now try to run the program again!

Let me know if this worked for you and if i made any errors!


Acumen Lab 4 : Empathy : Everyday Barriers

“Be in your comfort zone” was always something i believed in.
Why do something you don’t like? Why do something when you can afford a better facility? All my life , my parents and I would find a house closest to my school/college and stay there till i shifted to another place of study. As a result of this i have never really known what it was to travel in public transport,as i’d just have to walk to my school or college (which was few minutes away)

I never quite thought about it from my parent’s perspective as they had to take the burden of traveling to locations far off . My dad worked at a location 15km away and in a high traffic zone area and would wake up at 5am and come home at 6pm or 7pm, just so his “baby” daughter would face no trouble traveling to school.

Even now i have a taxi “pick and drop” facility provided by the company i work for. Oh the luxury. I still complain nevertheless as the traveling for an hour in the cab is tiring.

My experiment :
I have tried two possible routes now. Two of the most crowded routes (From office to home and college to my dad’s office).

Route 1 : Office to Home
To change two buses in one route , standing for two hours in two crowded buses where all you can hope is that you don’t get pushed off or hit by someone accidentally and hope that the lady in the seat gets off at the next stop so that you can get a place to sit. The heavy office bag i was carrying (with the laptop) wasn’t helpful either. I resisted listening to music to distract myself. I wanted to experience this journey to the fullest. Initially. the loud engine noise and the heat of the engine ( i was standing in the front of the bus, near the engine) can get anyone highly irritated. But after a while you look ahead and see through the huge front glass shield and see the entire road ahead. All the two wheelers, cars,pedestrians running around. All in the same state as you. It’s a harsh environment out there. But people do this every day , every year to take care of themselves/families . It made me happy and thankful for all that i have and at the same time sad that its hard for others to even travel comfortably. Also , angry that i was a bit self absorbed always that i had failed to notice the miseries of others.

Route 2 : College to Dad’s Office
This is the word/phrase that pops into my head when i think about the journey.
It was so exhausting that i had slept for straight 10 hours the moment i reached back home .
I had to change 4 buses . Yes, 4 buses! Crossing roads and dodging vehicles while crossing roads when you had to change a bus. I even had to cross open markets and railway tracks (with no safety) to reach. It was funny too. I had waited for a bus for half an hour and by then there were about 50 people waiting (tin factory bus stop) . The moment i saw the first bus come i tried to get in but the crowd was uncontrollable . I had no choice but to stand at the edge of a bus step (as i has waited too long to wait for another bus)
Read till the end to see what i experienced during that bus journey.

This course helped use the public transport to travel to work.It was my task for week 4. Trust me, given that it is India, in a urban highly populated city like Bangalore, traveling is a misery.I’ve realized.

Thousands of people use this everyday and stand for hours in a bus in horrific routes with a million manholes after working for a whole day for 9 hours which would’ve drained all the energy from their body.
Its truly commendable.

My aha moment
When i once had to literally stand on the last step of an over crowded bus and stick half my body out and feel the wind through my hair . It was dangerous, but i didnt have a choice. As we went over the flyover , the cool wind was freezing me , but those few moments i’d never forget. It was beautiful.

baby cheeks

First real obsession with taking pics. Babies are so cute. To be more appropriate. So freaking cute. Having an adorable neighbour who u can play with and feel proud for every little thing he learns when u teach him. Makes you wonder. Kids are suppose to learn and its a just a natural thing. Why be so surprised ? Or amused? Or jump with joy when he does something that u have been doing for weeks and he does it to just stop your annoying amusement with him. Or to enjoy the attention it gets when he does that. Indifference or delight. And what’s with all the fascination and the awws and wows. On the other hand if the kid doesn’t learn or do something cool its a …err well he is a slow learner. it’ll take time. Leave kids alone! Just stare at their cute chubby cheeks and smile.